Ugh

I wish I could just close my eyes tonight and wake up tomorrow as a slightly different person.

I could make a list right before I go to bed. You know, what I would like to change.... If only.

It's been one of those days where I love my life one minute and in the next, I am hating myself for something dumb that I did, or said, or thought.... I have an intense dislike for these days.

Lately, I have been having these -- well, we'll call them 'feelings' about a certain person.
I cannot understand them.
I cannot find a reason for them.
I wish they would go away.
I hate them.
I do not want them.
They really make no sense at all....I mean, NO SENSE!!! Yet, there they are.

The ping pong ball is going back and forth in my head again.
(That's a funny thought until you've experienced it - ha!)